Dear Ana,
Yesterday was so great. I only ate one small plate of spagheti because I had to and I even left leftovers. I resisted ice cream, chocolate, more ice cream, crepes, hot chocolate, chicken and buns.
I loved myself so much all day because I felt pure and worthy of love and it was so easy to talk to he boys. I don't think I have ever been that confident and talkative.
Also, I absolutely cared. My mind was so free and I saw the beauty in so many things- the forest, people, just my entire life.
After dinner I lost focus of why it was right not to eat and ate a bowl of caramel candy. Bad! I felt so gross afterwards, didn't care about anything, hated myself and didn't have any patience, no love, just self hate.
Today is a new day so I will skip breakfast and eat only a little for dinner. I think the problem yesterday was that I was thirsty.... I've got to drink more, which is hard cause were going on such a long car ride...
For future reference though: it's worth it to resist your appetite even if it seems like torture and the only way out. After a couple hours it will go away and you will love life again :)
Love, emma
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